rain makes me depressed. 

i almost forgotten how much I hate moving.  Too many little details to keep track of...and not having a car means you have to rely some really nice person/people to help you out. I am very happy though that at least 2 people have offered to help me.  I am grateful for that from the bottom of my heart.  :)

The last few months have been like a constant "finals week."  I am pretty burnt out...I must say I have never studied this hard in my life so far.  =X  At least I have done relatively well so I don't feel bad for all that time I have put into my classes.  In the past weekend, since there were no tests to study for, I have watched many hours of TV (movie marathon at Jenny's!  it was totally awesome we watched 3 movies in a row), went to a small singing/piano concert at yoshi's with David and his friend (after a nice dinner in Japantown), went to karaoke, visited my grandparents in Daly City, caught up on sleep, and finally watched the little mermaid dvd that Kim lent me.  But all this didn't help me to cope with today and how much lecture material was thrown at us on a Monday morning.  At least there's only one more week of classes left and then 2 weeks break *wooot*  Time to see Ricky next week  =] 

So this is the FIRST WEEK of class in my CLS program at SFSU.  Classes are from 9am-12pm and lab is 1-5pm.  I've have never looked into the microscope for this many hours in one week!  I can see so many red and white blood cells when I close my eyes...  We started with hematology, and this week I have already drawn blood twice (and also been drawn by two people)! It was nerve-wrecking to stick a needle in somebody the first time and somewhat the second time but I'm feeling like I can handle this.  :) 

I realize that I spend more time being out of the house than being at home (# hours awake) which is kind of daunting..it's quite difficult to have to take 1 hour to get to school and 1 hour to come back home.  Whenever I think about this, i try to think about one of the other classmate I met in this program who takes twice the amount of time I do to get to school and back (so I guess I don't have it the worst).  I have seen some people at SFSU that I knew in high school but I was always in a hurry to get somewhere that I never got to say hi to them  >.<   The campus is quite confusing...so I am going to stay in my little bubble of the science building and the cafeteria so I don't get lost somewhere else.  Maybe one day I can walk around some more and find out what the campus has to offer. But for now, I am just getting used to having to be in campus all day and taking 2 hours out per day to get home/get to school. At least for now I am getting enough sleeping hours...

Four more months and I will be rotating in the clinical lab in John Muir Hospital (Concord)!  I must be patient...and ace all my classes beforehand.  :P  I still can't believe that my life has taken such a drastic turn in less than a year...one minute I'm unemployed, the next minute I'm working as an adminin assistant and then BOOM I get to learn about medicine and do lab work again!  I have been waiting for this moment for so long I feel very much blessed to have this opportunity to build such an awesome career for myself.  I know for sure that this program will be very intensive, so in moments of stress I should remember what my goal is and I shall work harder.  add oil!  I hope everyone does well this year too; "those who never failed never tried"!

我现在的心情好混乱。。。